Just Keep Swimming

Dear Lydia,
          I had to save your life today.
I bought you and Gray these life vest floaties for this summer and today we went to use them for the first time. They needed some adjusting (which I have yet to figure out) so it wasn't really keeping your face out of the water like it was supposed to. So I took it off for you. You said you were done with the water after that and since your such an anxious child I didn't worry. So when I was at the other end of the pool retrieving the beach balls and I saw you drowning I swam as hard as I could to get to you. I made it. If felt like it took me so long. I didn't have to do CPR, thank goodness. You kept telling me you were sorry you feel off the steps. That's all you think happened because you're so young. But I know what almost happened and my heart is so sore. It felt like you were under for hours.
        Don't you go anywhere baby girl. I really don't know if I could handle losing you. I'm sorry that I frequently have a hard time finding patience for your anxiety. Over heights, bugs, grass, showers, and now water (that one I get). Sometimes I worry that you don't trust me. I promise you baby, I don't want you to get hurt. I am doing everything in my power to prevent as much pain as I can in your life. I feel your every hurt in my heart. Please just take into account what I say. Sometimes listening to advice can save you a lot of heartache. But accidents happen, like today: things we never saw coming. I promise I will be there to help you: "Just Breath". You are always my first. I will always love you.
Love,
Mommy